Daily Prompt: Childhood Revisited…I hate visiting.

The prompt:

First of all… I was told not to ever come back and visit. I am not very tight with my parents.

I am 20 years old.

My parents divorced when I was 16 years old.

That was 15 years over due.

So I don’t visit.

I wish a lot of things were different about my childhood….I wish we didn’t move around so much. I wish that at the first sight of falling apart, I wish they would have. I wish I grew up with my aunt and cousins. I wish I wasn’t bullied. I wish they weren’t too scared to do anything, so instead of dealing with the issue, we moved. I wish I stayed in dance. I wish I wasn’t forced to do martial arts. I wish my father wasn’t my coach for so long. I wish I wasn’t the chicken in the fight. I wish my dad didn’t cheat on my mother. I wish my mother didn’t pretend not to see it.

For the sake of this post, my childhood is every passing second, and moment that is no longer mine.
I wish I wasn’t depressed from the 16 up till 3 months ago…. because there was a lot of stuff I would have liked to have seen.

Sorry if this is depressing… or too personal. I’ve never posted anything like this before. I guess we had it coming right?

So no… I don’t visit. Mostly for the reason that there isn’t anything left to.

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8 thoughts on “Daily Prompt: Childhood Revisited…I hate visiting.

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  4. I could feel your pain through your words, because of that I do not like to click the “yes” button. You are courageous to pen it down and let alone post it. Letting out the steam in return might heal a tiny bit of your pain and I wish it does. Sometimes it is better to look forward in a positive manner rather than burying yourself in the past so I take your point that you do not like to revisit your childhood.
    Best wishes for the positive future.
    Saba

  5. Having said that, in my opinion, I think you just released the toxin out of your system. Sometimes, we have to revisit the pass in order to heal. Talking through experience. Thank you for sharing.

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