I have noticed that these challenge posts have been more like diary entries, and I hope that everyone is enjoying them as much as I have been enjoying writing them. I’ve mentioned before that I love writing this kind of post, but a lot of my content doesn’t call for personal talk. These kinds of insights are pretty rare to come by, especially now that this isn’t a recovery blog, but a wellness blog. Sometimes its difficult for me to open up and share how I’m feeling with the people in my life, I mean I almost always end up talking about it with my mom, but on this blog its easier. I feel protected or hidden. Which probably isn’t right seeing as this is a public domain, where anyone and everyone can read about me. I used to write with a fake persona when I was younger, I had fake accounts and I would write so openly, and so broadly. There was nothing holding me back from spilling my heart out, but now, there is so much at stake. My name is known around here, and I’m stretching out to different online mediums and so I can’t write about all the things I used to.
Recently I’ve been debating changing my facebook account name completely, in hopes to protect myself that way, but I’m not sure that its worth it. I already go by Mazie Bones on there, so its not exactly my name, but its almost too close for comfort.
I get nervous about posting photos of myself anywhere now. And believe me, I was a selfie queen, I used to take one a day to see how I changed from day to day, but now its more rare than usual.
Am I just paranoid?
Am I the only one that is scared about posting my feelings on the internet?
Let me know!